Or realize how much it took for me to follow thru or whatever. Hopefully one day they will...

And for them being as supportive as I can. Love it when they've doubted me or counted me out cuz obstacles then i manage to still come thru. Unsure if they know

Can't come thru. My children are my world they are my purpose and why I live. I try to extend and express the love I have for them with action by being there w/

Be the all the time in every way I can but when I can't it's sooo hard on me. I think i take it harder than my kids do. Makes me feel like a failure when i

To help YOU out not inluding financial strain at wrong time for me to come up short. So i don't know what to do. Ugh! Parenting is so hard! I want to and try to

It that much more. I need to see more fire under his a@@ for me to get up wee hrs to run u here or there not appreciating what all i'm sacrificing or whatever

Of changes and then it's just kinda walked away from. If you want it bad enough if ur hungry enuf u'll do whatever to get 'er done and stick wit it appreciating

Too much for me to do. I don't mind helping if I can but I can't. Also, if I make it too ez there's not as much appreciation. I don't want to go thru all kinds

Trying to think of a way to help them acheive some goals in bettering themselves and their situation. My heart feels heavy and I want to help but it's almost

victoria will be 22 tomorrow and I won't be able to see hern at least she finally got another phone so we can be in contact with one another. Thank God 4that.

Another chill border boring sunday. Football on tv all day me on my ipod touch. Party weekend for many in the world. It's not a Godly holiday. Victoria will be

Feeling like a lazy saturday. Lot on my mind not much on my schedule. More in & on my heart. Just touching base with my blog. Til later or next time...

Another friday night kinda bored. Listening to my music while my ipod charges. Chillaxin. An uneventful day. No complaints grateful my life is drama free...

Visiting for the day

Well today was a very nicely spent day. Handled some things and finally got a chance to visit with a couple of my kids, see their new place and share quality time. We went to Martinez,CA for a few hours. But it's never enough it seems, I always want more. I love and miss my babies oh so very much. Made it back home a couple of hours ago still not really ready for sleep.

Someone it would seem hacked into my twitter account today. My cousin tweeted asking me a question and I had no idea what he was referring to. I signed on saw the tweet via my iPod I tried to see if there was a way for me to change my pw but there wasn't. So not much thought about it. A few minutes ago I try to sign back in to check out the latest tweets and now I can't sign in I'm getting told my pw is incorrect. So... I don't know what to do. I guess I will have to use my computer to do that type of thing. Ergh! Can't believe some people just have nothing better to do.

Sad news my Tio Orlando passed away.

Another Day

Chillin with my music ....

Just relaxing with some music, my computer and my thoughts. Worries about my children, esp. my son... he's at that teenage stage ditchin classes. I only want the best for my children!

I want to be as important to them as they are to me. Can't help but feel less than important when last minute decisions to cancel or shorten our plans to be together. erg!

Got a lot on my mind... concerns... emotions... thoughts....